Salacious

And I know I won't admit it
And I don't want to say it
But I still look for you in the park
On my way home each day
And no, I won't admit it
Not even to my friends
They think I'm doing well
And I even lie to myself

How long can you keep a secret from yourself
Like that storm that blew me back two years
To that first step I took away from you
And the hope that you left
It's hidden in my room and I'm a strong woman
But sometimes I'm weak for you